hope kills
can't stand for all the knives in my back
weighing me down weighing me down
weighing down on me
my fruit's bitter hanging on the vine
like wasted promises from wasted time
feel the water rising on my neck
about to break, to crest...
the rest is history
i feel like drowning
the tide's dragging me down
weighing me down...weighing down on me
i'm smothered in hope

somebody save me
somebody save me
i hope somebody saves me
can you hear me screaming in hope?

in a state of being smothered in hope (save me)
in a state of breathing smothered in hope (save me)
in a state of mind breaking smothered in hope (save me)
it's held over my head like a pillow (save me)

drained of strength practically I'm dead
weighing me down weighing me down
weighing down on me
the water wipes my will dry
it's like a funeral of my mind
screaming means hope...
breathing means will...
i think i need strength
i want to give up my hope
it's weighing me down
i'm smothered in hope

somebody save me
somebody save me
i hope somebody saves me
can you hear me screaming in hope?
in a state of being smothered in hope
(save me)
in a state of breathing smothered in hope (save me)
in a state of mind breaking smothered in hope
(save me)
it's held over my head like a pillow
(save me)

priscilla
can you taste it
here at my tea
just to settle down
i wake up my insanity
everyone's mad here
everyone's insane
everyone's mad here
everyone's mad
i'll pass you the sugar
in a heart shaped bowl
you need this like
i need a hole...in my head
everyone's mad here
everyone's insane
everyone's mad here
everyone's mad
leading me down the path
of righteousness
you know you are killing me
you keep looking at that watch i never
knew you were so blood thirsty
you know you are killing me
you know you are killing me
you know you are killing me
you know you are killing me
you judged and juried me
made me out to be a thief
a stupid child wanting your life
the queen is mad here and she laughs
she screams for my blood
off with my head
i know she won't stop
until i'm dead
curious like a spoiled child
you peak into the garden i tend
just to smile and fade away
leaving only a sickly grin
everyone's mad here
everyone's insane
everyone's mad here
everyone's mad
leading me down the path
of righteousness
you know you are killing me
you keep looking at that watch i never
knew you were so blood thirsty
you know you are killing me
you know you are killing me
you know you are killing me
you know you are killing me

depth perception
have you looked deep inside yourself
deep inside myself i am caught
and you thought i'm beside myself
deep inside yourself you are not
and i try to find how i am alive
you are not alive i find
and i'm not that girl that you once knew
that i thought you knew i never was
i am much deeper than this
you are now my strangest kiss
i try to identify myself
but i'm still lost in my own personal hell
have you broken it down within
have twisted it with my pain
it simply grabbed and overtook your dreams
ripped apart your means of fame
and you're beside the well of my mental health
i always seem to dwell on your means
you wish that girl with those blondish curls
i wish that i could kill that dream
i can't find myself anymore
today is the day of redemption
i can't find myself anymore
today i absolve your intentions
to destroy me
i am bigger than this
you are now my deepest kiss
i finally accept myself
here in my own personal hell
i try to lock it up and toss away the key
far away from me where you'll never find
so you'll dig around with your sorry frown
try to bring me down to your kind
i refuse your game i won't fight today
hell, i'll runaway from you
i'm much stronger now that i found myself
when you are beside yourself what can you do
i am much deeper than this
you are now my strangest kiss
i try to identify myself
but i'm still lost in my own personal hell

suddenly
you think of me when you smell my perfume
i know want a man wants when i walk in the room
feel sorry for the next girl in your future
i've waited, the time is near
i'm reliving memories in fear
suddenly i fear the future
held my heart, my hand and now i'm dead
17-14-19...gone
17 years and nobody's different
14 days and i can't wait to see you
19 hours suddenly there's a problem
my heart is coated...disconnected
suddenly i fear the future
my conviction is true
i'm madly in love with you
suddenly i now fear the future
can you please do me a favour
and explain to me what i was to you
suddenly i fear the future
held my heart, my hand and now i'm dead
17-19-14...gone

stolen
I USED TO KNOW YOU
I USED TO FEEL YOU
& NOW YOU'RE GONE
I'M OKAY I'M OKAY I'M OKAY
IT'S JUST ME & MY SHADOWS
I HAVE MANY
MISSED OPPERTUNITIES
CHAOS ON THE HOMEFRONT
I'M OKAY I'M OKAY I'M OKAY
IT'S JUST ME & MY SHADOWS
IN SILENT DEFIANCE
I'M LEFT WITHOUT GUILT & SHADOWS
I WILL BE BACK & TAKE
TAKE WHAT YOU'VE stolen
YOU'VE stolen MY YOUTH...MY LOVE...MY PRIDE
(thief)
YOU'VE TAKEN MY STRENGTH WITH ALL THE TEARS I'VE CRIED
(thief)
YOU THINK YOU WILL LEAVE ME DEFEATED
(thief)
COLD...LOST...BRUISED...BEATEN...
THIEF
I SEE FACES
WHERE NONE SHOULD BE
THEIR EYES LACK THE HEAT
I'M OKAY I'M OKAY I'M OKAY
IT'S JUST ME & MY SHADOWS
IN SILENT DEFIANCE
I'M LEFT WITHOUT GUILT & SHADOWS
I WILL BE BACK & TAKE
TAKE WHAT YOU'VE stolen

lost forever
learn your son and adopt his love
you never loved me, you never knew me
you waged your war with him on us
you made yourself neglect me
he always found a way to forgive and forget
i've just learned to live without you
i've learned how to not love you
i don't need your lesson of hate
i don't need your legacy of pain
i don't want your overwhelming pride
without you in my life, i'm fine
without you in my life, i'm fine
you're lost forever
passed down from stranger to father
and then from father to me
your lesson of hate
beaten nightly into me
your shadow still hangs over him
your eyes still look through him
your words still cut into him
as he now tries to understand me
you never tried to understand him
you never tried to know me
you'll never love me
you're lost forever
you're lost forever
you're lost forever
you're lost forever
you couldn't respect his mind
you couldn't fathom his drive
too bad, and now you never will
and you'll never understand him
you never tried to know me
you'll never understand me
you'll never love me
you're lost forever
you'll never have respect from me
you took your war out on me
you'll never love me
i will never love you
you're lost forever
you're gone as quickly as you came
a mere passing thought in a blanket day
a vengeful hate-filled sick old man
i will never love
you're lost forever